Hey, Future Child!

I’m not a good mom. I’m arrogant, but I’ll in love with you even we don't meet yet. I’m not good at rise the kids, but I’ll do my best to take care of you. I’ll welcome you all my heart and life. I’m not a good daugther if you wanna know. I always figth with your grandparents. We’re always at opposite side. I ever hate both of them. I ever don’t talk to them for years, although we live at same place. But I hope I can be your save place.
I’ll look at you. I’ll listen you. Maybe you’ll disappointed on me one day. Forgive me I can be a perfect mom. But I hope we can have proper conversation. Please just tell me all your fear. I’ll help you solve your problem. Maybe it’s not a good sugestion, but it’s worth to try. If I’m broke your heart, please just tell me. We can talk and find a way for you and me. Maybe I can’t give all you want, but I’ll try give the best things for you.
My life after twenty isn’t good. I hope you never do same mistake like your mom. If you did it, please always come to me. You’re never alone. Every one make a mistake. If you’re regret what you’ve done, just tell me. Your mom knows how it feel. I’ll embrace you till you feel calm. When it comes to reading, I’ll read many stories for you.
Your mom lack of speaking skill and communication skill. Even she can’t talk properly to others. She can’t deliver her own idea inside her head. Her attitude is bad, pretty bad. She can’t give good smile. She lack listening skill. She lack of confidence, lack of self-esteem, lack of self-awarness, lack of self-conscious, lack of self-control. She can’t manage her time. But she never stop trying and learning good things. She never stop improve herself. Maybe, I don’t hope you’ll proud of me.
Maybe your dad isn't a good man in the world, but he’ll give you all he can get. He’ll always beside you when you need him. Maybe he’ll angry if you disobey him, but he’ll always love you. He maybe can’t do all things you want. But he did what you never asked. Maybe he can’t have a good talk with you. But you must know, he’ll always curious if you tell him how your day. Maybe he can’t see the dissimilarity between two things. But he’ll always know how make you laugh.
Remember, you’re not our own. But we love you as our precious gift. One day if you go from our side, don’t worry about us. We’re glad have you. We’re glad you’re our kids. Please don’t ever hate us. Please don’t ever hesitate to talk about yours, about your unnecessary things.
We’re here always love you, future kids.